Do you love me even with my dark side ?

我的宝贝！

在我闷的时候，只有它们陪伴我，有时候它们真的很调皮但是它们也可以哄我开心，我真的很爱它们，哈哈哈，最近我住的地方不让我们有宠物所以最后决定都是带它们回去Malaysia因为真的不舍得让别人领养它们。

Dexter and Jasper !! 超可爱吧？

Jasper 

Dexter 

我可爱吗？妈妈和爸爸很疼我的哦！

我的心情！

人生很累，很多烦恼，很多问题但是一定有解决的方法！最近觉得很累，很想休息哦！假期快到吧！很想轻轻松松的放假，什么都不想去理哦。为什么人生要那么的累！几时才会停呢？

心很痛，不想再这样下去，几时才会停？几时才会好一点？这样下去你只会让我反感！麻木！心淡！灰心！很想快一点离开这个鬼地方和魔鬼！！我真的很辛苦，很累！快疯了！！

我是个大小孩！

人长大了，烦恼也慢慢的越来越多。小的时候很想快一点长大，不想读书，很想快一点出去做工，但是现在真真的出来做工了又很怀念小的时候，没有烦恼，简简单单的过。现在做工做到真的很累，真的很想放一个长长的假期，好好的休息，调理好自己的健康。人老了真的需要好好照顾身体。昨天突然间很不开心，放工了觉得很累很不舒服然后就大哭一场，哈哈哈。。人那么大了还要好像个小孩子这样哭，哭了发泄了就没事了，觉得舒服很多。
有些人的发泄方法可能跟我不一样但是对我来说，哭出来是最好的方法，好过收在心里那么辛苦，哭到眼睛肿肿，鼻子红红，还是要假装没有东西因为不想别人知道自己的难过，自己知道就好吧。
最近看到身边的朋友好多问题但是就不敢去问他们什么回事因为自己都帮不了他们。每次当我教他们怎样做的时候，我都会想自己能做得到吗？自己却做不到那么哪里有资格去教别人了？
现在的我只是想一个简简单单的生活，把家里两个小狗养好好，其他东西不想再去想，很多东西上天已经帮我们安排好好了，是你的就是你的，不是你的怎样勉强都不是你的。 :)

Hong Kong Trip [Day 2]

The second day at Hong Kong. We had our breakfast at 翠華茶餐厅. We just order 1 normal breakfast set to share and then we also got try their famous 奶油猪仔包, maybe the branch that we go not so nice because when at the HK airport.. Jamie also got try the 奶油猪仔包 and it is much more nicer than the first time we eat.

After that, we just take MRT go to Tsim Tsa Tsui and walk walk.. Then we go to the shop that sell alot cosmetics product.. Walao eh ... Damn alot people there leh... All push here push there..

Then we go to The One shopping mall... This shopping mall quite small and not really much shop also... But there got Rilakkuma ! Hahaha .. So cute ...

Then we 2 head to Avenue Stars... OMG ! 好晒一下咯.. Then we 2 fast fast take jor pic and back hotel. Back hotel to put down our things and change clothes to The Peak ! Hehehe...

Please ignore my big face....

The uncle so funny lor... hahhaha ....

We go to The Peak to see the night view of Hong Kong and we also got visit the Madame Tussauds. We take alot of pictures with those famous artist.. Hahahaha...

Hong Kong night view ... ^^

Then we back to hotel... It is really tired and again we plan to go Massage... xD

Our tired face after a whole day walk...

Ok.. that's all for the second day. Bye.

Hong Kong Trip [Day 1]

Quite long time didn't update my blog.. Hehehe.. Now I'm back again.. but I think no one view my blog also. But then never mind. xD

Last week went to Hong Kong ! Treated by my company.. Hahaha.. So lucky ! All the air ticket and the hotel fees provided by my company. LOL !! Some more still have 500SGD pocket money. LOLOL !! Feel ok jor lor .. Hehehe .. But then this trip I spend more than 500SGD ... =.='' Still say wanna save money.. Like this how to save lar .. haha.. Ok.. gonna write about my 1st day at Hong Kong..

Reach Hong Kong airport about 10am like this.. Then gonna pass the immigration, take our luggage and go to meet the one who gonna pick us up ... All of us 19 persons.. OK ! We meet him already.. so we think we can go back to our hotel... Mana tau.. he ask us wait him "2 mins" .. Ok.. "2 mins" jek ma... so we wait him.. but ... "2 mins" and "2 mins".. we almost wait more than half hours.. we all are so hungry and tired ! All start to become pekcek and go ask him why need to wait for so long ? Who he waiting for... Actually he waiting for 1 more INDIA traveller.. WTF ! Want 19 persons wait him 1 person ???? At the end.. we no wait anymore.. and together go to hotel. We stay at Shamrock Hotel [2 stars].. Even it is just 2 stars but their service is not bad and the environment is good also. The room is clean and bright, just quite small jek. I like the location of our hotel because it is so near the MRT Station and around the hotel is a lots of restaurants and massage shops also. The nearby MRT station is Jordan Station.

Let see my TIRED face !

Look so chan... hahahah...

After put down our lugagge, is the time to go out surf for some food.. so hungry !! Then walk nearby our hotel and I found the famous milk company.. but now I forget the name already.. The food we order .. The taste not bad also..

This restaurant have to queue up geh leh !! And "tap toi" means share table with unknown people. So after we took our meal then we go back to hotel take a rest. I write "WE" means Jamie and I.

Me and Jamie, both looks so chan.. because no sleep more than 12 hours !! After take a rest, we start to surf again. First destination is Mong Kok. We take MRT to Mong Kok. It is so convenient lor at Hong Kong.. Want to go where then just take MRT and walk for few minutes can reach already. Then we just walk around those night market such as Ladies Market, Tung Choi Street. Then I told Jamie that I wanna try the Japanese Restaurant that advertised by a famous HK artist, Joey Yung. We found it. As recommend by one of my friend, the sushi is sososososo nice ! I give 100x LIKED. The salmon sashimi is so FRESH. Their japanese CORN and PEACH ... DAMN SWEET ! In my whole life, I think this the sweetest corn and peach I had tried before... I'm really really miss it. Some more I'm corn and peach fans ! LOL !! Really my favourite ! Again I forget the restaurant name.. =.='' I just remember to eat nia.. Hehehe..

The sweetest corn and peach...

After eat bao bao ... shopping session start .. Then I went into a shop.. Attracted by some cute teddy and I own it at the end... It really so cute lor.. I'm sure all the girls will like geh because my dear also feel it is so cute... hahahaha...

Seee... It is CUTE ?? Got my name geh leh.. Hahahhaa... So special ! After walk for few hours, Jamie and I go back to hotel and thinking wanna find some massage. So just go to the massage shop nearby our hotel that recommend by our hotel reception. Hmmm.. the service ok ok lor... After that back hotel and be PIG !!!

Ok.. that's all for the first day.. We do appreciate the every day we at Hong Kong.. xD .. We never waste it. As you can see that our first day already so busy.. Hehehe ..

Now gonna go ta pao for my BREAKFAST ! Damn hungry .. Eat before sleep again ! FAT =.=''

爱吃鬼！

虽然我的嘴很痛，有ulcer但是我依然还是吃那么多东西，那可以真明我真的很爱吃哦，嘻嘻。吃东西的时候是一个享受但是吃完过后又怕肥，那该怎样咧？哈哈哈，做运动咯。。但是我又很懒惰，那么就让他变胖吧。没人要就没人要。呵呵~~

休息天又出去吃饭和看戏，看完戏过后，男的就去看球而女的就去吃宵夜，不肥都假咯。我们去Snowman吃韩国餐，emmm，yummy yummy~~ 休息天就这样过了，好像没有什么特别，我的人生真的很闷。

男的心声

在每一段爱情刚开始时，男的总是比较在乎和关心女的而女的就没有那么的在乎，但这段爱情走的比较长了，男的就会慢慢变得随便而女的就会变得很在乎男的所作所为。女的总是会问男的一些问题。。。

1）“到以后，你是不是还会那么爱我呢？”

2）“为什么你没有那么关心我了？是不是不爱我啦？”

3）“为什么你没有打电话给我？你去了哪里？”

4）“你是不是有另外一个了？”

5）“你又没有骗我？”

/XD 哈哈。。以上的问题我都有问过我的男友，可能当你第一次问他们时，他们会好好的回答你，当女的问得多次时候，男的就会觉得很烦，有时候这些问题真的很难回答，男的不想回答因为他们不要答应女的那么多东西，但他们做不到时，女的就会怪他们，这样只会让女的跟加伤心。

以前的我常常叫我的男友答应我很多东西，但他做不到时，我的心就会怪他，骂他为什么答应了我的东西但是又做不到，慢慢的想清楚。。。为什么我要他答应我那么多东西？没有人知道未来会发生什么，可能未来是我做不到答应了他的事情。。嘻嘻。。

所以我只是要他答应我一样东西，那就是“当有一天他不爱我了或我已经爱别人，请告诉我，别骗我”，这是我要他答应我和一定要做的倒的。。。

看了一个短片，是讲“男人的心声”。。。以下哪个女的做的一切，我都有做过。。。呵呵。。不懂我的男友是不是都是这样想咧？




***姐妹们，别再这样做啦[告诉自己，嘻嘻~] /wahaha

休息天~

原来每个人都有儿童的一面！休息天，让自己放松一下^^ 就和dear出去走走，吃饭和看戏。在等着我们的戏开始，就去TimeZone玩游戏。哈哈，很就没有这样玩了，蛮开心的：）

这次真的大出血了！我买了一件很贵很贵的jacket。。(*_*)心有点痛，嘻嘻。。但是真的很喜欢：）

* Juicy Couture
* Cute cute handphone holder

Offday !! Relax ^^

Offday ! Work for 6 days, now finally can rest.. So let myself rest and relax... Recently the face so so so dry ... What happen ya ?? Aikssss... Do mask do mask !! Heheheh.. Short post ! :)

累！

很想跟你出去走走，吃饭和看戏但是最近大家都很累，每次都是醒不到来然后就这样没有出去了。。。

为什么最近每天都睡眠不足，觉得很累，但我的电话响的时候，真的不想起身去做工，很想继续睡下去。。。

人生为什么要那么多烦恼，简简单单，开开心心这样过不好吗？为什么总是要那么复杂和那么多问题？

爱情，友情，亲情。。。全部都是那么烦。

如果两个人在一起相处几十年但是现在还是怀疑对方的人格，那么这段亲情是什么东西啊？

有时候就简单的想一下，必需要这样做吗？你们有没有想过有时候你们做的东西有点过分和偏帮某些人？

为什么最近都是些一些不开心的东西？？=。=''

^^

又是月尾了，时间过得真快。为什么“梦想成真”这东西永远都没有我的份？“失望”永远都会有我的份！为什么？？？真的不明白。。。

再一次你又出现，你的出现真的让我很害怕。你的出现可以让他对我说谎，为什么？我一直对自己说没东西的，但是我的心里根本就做不到。

对不起，我真的没信心，我知道这样会让你很辛苦，所以我就扮到没东西一样，开心不开心都是收在心里，自己一个懂就好了。

最近我真的看清楚某些人，他们的真面目，到底是我变了或？好了，这个话题别再说了，过去了就让他过去~

她的出现真的说一句“对不起”那么简单？如果是真的，为什么他不能坦白的告诉我？我不敢再去看他信息因为我很怕看到他和她的谈天。。。

她给他太多的美好回忆，让他很难的忘记她，这样让我觉得没有人能代替她。。。

今天就是那么多，不懂要写什么了。。。心情不太好:) 祝她每天都开开心心吧~

我不想！！！

多么不想发生的总是要发生了，多么不想面对还是要面对。但是我知道这次改变会很大。为什么每次不开心的东西就有我的份，开心的事情永远没有我的份？天啊！！！

做会自己，不要让别人影响自己的心情，为什么要去管别人说什么？别人的心没有你了，那你的心也不必再有他，因为以前的你对他有多么的好，他已经忘记了，不必再跟他计较那么多，你说更多只会让别人觉得你妒忌他们羡慕他们。真心，说真的，你比不上他们，只是他还没发现到，如果他真的不珍惜你的真心，那为什么你还要那么心痛呢？你有多么的痛，他还是不懂，这样下去你只会让你自己更加辛苦，你还有很多疼你的人，不要为了一个两个而活得不开心。我知道有一天他会看清楚谁是好谁是坏的。“不要管”这句话，以前你常常跟我说，你叫我不要管那么多，那为什么现在你不会跟你自己说？我们管不到那么多，别人要做些什么，讲些什么，我们控制不到，就让他们继续做，有一天他们会感受到他们以前做过的事。我们只好做会自己，开心就够了，当你失落时，就想想你妈妈，因为你还有她是对你好的 ：）

I Love My MaMa~

Again no chance to celebrate Mother's Day with my mummy :'( but I'm still LOVE her so much :D She is always number 1 in my heart ! Hahaha... I think back when I'm small. Always make her angry and how bad I am. Feel so sorry to her. When we are small, I think everyone also dislike to be scold by mummy. Feel she is annoying when asking me to eat this eat that, do this do that, and control what I'm doing. Seriously, when I'm small, I really don't like she do that. I ask angry why she always want control me.. Hahaha.. but now I think back, actually she do so just want us to be good. Ya ! Now I know it :D I still remember that she don't allow me to dating when I'm still study but I still do that.. make her so sad.. Now I know why that time she wanna do so and she force me to come Philippine work, that time I really hate her and feel like wanna run away from home but at the end I didn't do it. If that time I really run away from home, I think I won't have things that I belongs now. So, I have to Thanks my mummy so much... Give you a big big kiss !! Muacksssss .... Hahaha...

真真的快乐有多少人能得到 ？

当一个人长大，慢慢的就会面对种种不一样的问题。。。
当你处理到不好，别人就会觉得你不行。。。

当一个人长大，烦恼就越来越多。。。
当你想找个人听听你说心事，必需要找对人，不是每个人都愿意借你他们的耳朵。。。

当一个人长大，要学习分什么该说和什么不该说。。。
当你说错一句话，你就会很容易让别人误会你。。。

当一个人长大，再不能像个小孩子，要哭就哭，要笑就笑。。。
当你遇上问题时，想要用哭来发泄，却不能，这样就会让人觉得你不过成熟。。。

为什么做人要那么介意别人说什么，做会自己，问心无愧就好了。。。
别人说些什么，就不用去管，嘴巴是长在他们的身上，他们要说些什么，我们管不到，但是这些行为会得到报应的。。。
有些人选者去相信是因为他们还没醒过来，有一天他们一定会看清楚谁是对谁是错。。。

当我想到通通我在面对的问题，我真的很想妈妈，只有她是对我好的，只有她能安慰我，只有她能明白我，但是我却不敢告诉我的决定。。。
我知道现在的我不能做这个决定，真的不懂几时可以离开，有时候真觉得很辛苦，很难受，很讨厌！！！
虽然不喜欢，还是要接受，还是要继续！！！

What is confident ?

Confident not just say something and can let ppl have confident 1. Need action and not just wait the person slowly have confident. If something not suit then just let go or maybe try another new 1 will be better. What you need and what I need, both of us can't satisfy each other. Together just suffer. Ya, I'm selfish ! You can blame me. I never blame what you did, just what I need you don't know. Can't blame anyone. 3 years, but the condition still the same. That means nothing will change anymore. Change, just the heart change.

容祖兒 Joey Yung - 連續劇 (On Call 36小时)

On Call 36 小时 !

Recently watch a Hong Kong drama, the story really so nice ! I really like the story !! The movie name is "On Call 36 小时"

Hahaha... This movie is about how the doctor save those patient. This movie also let me know that we should appreciate our life. Life is short. We don't know when we gonna leave this world so just do what we want to do now. Life should be happy, shouldn't because some rubbish things or nonsense people and make our life no happy. Just go to the happy one. ^^ The movie also let me know that we should appreciate people around us especially our family members. Everyone should watch this movie and learn how to appreciate our life. Hahahhaha... I know that ! I'm learning now !! I want appreciate my life ! I want my life always happy. I don't want because those nonsense people and make my life sad. I want a BETTER LIFE !! Hahahaha... Happy happy come come, bad bad go go away :)

I will try my best to make my life getting brighter ^^

I will appreciate all things around me ^^
Hope myself can do it ... Hehehehe ...

我需要什么？

其实我知道自己需要些什么，我现在拥有的并不是我需要的。。这条路是我自己选的那么我必需要继续走下去，只能让自己走的没那么辛苦就是不要想那么多。。好或者坏也要面对，开心或不开心也要生活。。为什么不要开开心心呢？说就厉害但是做。。我就做不到。。我在逃避着哪些问题，我不敢去面对，去做个决定。。我怕后悔。。每天只是在发自己脾气，突然间很开心突然间心情不好。。这样继续。。我真会疯！！！没有人能帮到我，所有问题都要我自己去解决，讲出来也没有用。。每天我就要假装很开心，笑着对人。。但是有谁懂得我的问题我的难过？有时候真觉得很累。。很想放一个大假，一个人去走走，放松自己。。这个机会几时会到来？

Long time no update my blog again :( ... Something happen again :'( Some time really feel so tired and wanna quit it but I can't. When I can quit here ? T.T I don't want face all the things... I want to escape all. I just want a simple life but not like now. All the things make me so tired. Grrrrrr !! Why must be so complicated ?? Cannot be more simple for me ? Who can tell me why ? What I need never give to me but what I don't like all just come to me ? I don't want ! Keep it back !! Say the true... I don't want be stupid anymore. I don't want sacrifice for something that no worth anymore. I feel it is so stupid ! Can just someone sacrifice for me ? Stop all this ! Can I ?

Thanks for it :)

I love it , Thanks for it :)

How ??

Today received my best friend msg.. She told me that she sad.. I'm wondering what happen on her.. She told that now she only know that she not her bf true love ! OMG !! How come this will happen on her ? In front of everyone they are damn sweet but actually she not her bf true love ? Fuck the guy ! If you no love my friend please leave her lar.. Why want like this cheat her ? Do you know you are so hurt her ?? She treat u so good.. And now you come tell her this ? Haizzz.. Why human always like this ?? Never appreciate things around you, wait until they lost you only will appreciate. I also don't know how to help her.. She only have 2 choices.. Either break up or continue together lor.. Maybe someday he will really love you but need to wait until when leh ?? My friend sacrifice so many things, even got a better guy chase her, she also ignore bcs she is really love her bf.. But how her bf treat her ? Really feel like wanna slap this guy, let him wake up !!! Stupid man wake up lor!! If you still in your dream then let my friend away lar, don't hurt her anymore pls!! She can deserve a better 1 !! Really don't know how to help her.. She sure cry a lots.. Haiz.. Worth meh ?? Really no worth 1.. She tell me.. She really got think to marry this guy. Now.. == I also don't know how to say.. Wish her will ntg soon :) and don't for a man that not deserve with it, keep your tears for a better man =) Today damn tired !! Wanna sleep now ! Good night...

小时候的我~~~

Hehehe...

What I really need and what you really know ?

Today I'm fucking pekcek !! Why will like this ? I really "mm fuk" with all this thing.. I already no count so much already, I already let it be.. Why today I want so kepo ppl things ? Maybe I shut my mouth up then won't so much things happen. I know you already say sorry to me and I no more angry you but what I sad is why you don't know what I need ? I feel that you are just protecting her ! What she do is correct and what I do us wrong ? Ok, you say diff group diff style, I can accept it. But then she really can ? Ok, she can or not really non of my business ! but why you want keep argue with me about that ? Me "mm fuk" is bcs she like this, those ppl feel she can but me ? Just A shit ?? Wtf ! She have so many ppl support ! Ok, I'm not jealous her and I also don't hope I can up bcs got ppl support ! I want use my own effort ! Keep stay here, I will die soon... Friend with this let ppl say friend with that also say .. HELLO ! Is you guys dump me alone 1st so I go join others lar. Like this also want say me ? I really so hard to do ppl ! This say that bad thing, that say this bad thing.. And then I just keep listen from both .. Want me how leh ? Me also keep quiet and listen only.. Actually I very San fu.. U all know am ? But no ppl know .. No ppl I can tell also.. Bcs I don't want later many things happen again.. Only here I can write out.. Maybe I can tell my bf but he willing to listen ? He know my pain ? Tell him, I sure will cry out then he just will say that I want some ppl pity me and care me ? even him also like this.. Who I still can tell to ? Only blogger can :) I tell him just I want share my things with him but not want him pity me. Some more he is my bf, he have the responsibility to do so and not only me go care him nia !!! Pls don't come and tell me that diff ppl diff behavior ! This is not accept ! Some Time I send so much things to you just want you send me back more word but what you send me ? "okok muacks" OMG !! What response you want me give you ? A BIG smile :D <<< like this ? You really don't know what I thinking and what I need at all ! You say you know, ya... You really know, really know how to say nia lor.. Just same,, nth change... I promise myself not to cry anymore ! So how suffer I also will just kept in my heart. I will continue hold my tears :) no one know, ok.. This blog my bf know it and he might view it, if after he read it and feel angry with me then I ntg to say, this just a only place that I can write my problems.. No one I can say with ! Last word.. I love Blogger :) ❤

3rd Valentine&apos;s Celebration...

Today going out to celebrate the Valentine's Day with dear... Hehe... Even though just a simple day out but I also feel happy jor ... Dear promise to buy me the Burberry perfume but no more stock.. So he bought me a watch .. Hehehe .. I like it so much ^^ what I buy for him ? Heheh... Actually I just pay half of his PS Vita .. After few hours shopping... We decide to eat steamboat.. So we went to Healthy Shabu Shabu to have our dinner.. After dinner then back home... Hope can with him pass every Valentine's Day until I old.. Hahahaha...

My offday~

Off day again... Today actually plan to have a short shopping.. Thought wanna buy the jacket that I like and Mr.K geh shoes... but how know.. when reach the shop.. no more the shoes that we want and Mr.K says the jacket no nice.. :( So.. today can't get any things.. xD .. Never mind .. can save some.. hahaha.. After shopping then we went to a new restaurant to have our dinner. Ermm.. the restaurant seems like so less customers wo... just only 1-2 tables have people only.. But we already go in.. so no choice lor.. just have a try ^^ Hehehe.. luckily the food still ok..

Here are the food that we order.. the sandwich so special.. looks like sushi.. hehe but actually is bread with tuna and outside the chef use seaweed to cover the bread.. hehe.. so cute ... At last we also can't finish the sandwich.. so take away and now become my supper.. =.=''

Today so guai.. rest at home.. hahaha.. no go out "wet" because SICK jor !! and my bracing do adjustment again.. and I feel more tight again.. it is painful now.. T.T Bite also feel hard .... So just stay at home update my phone.. chit chat with my long time no chit chat geh sister, MANDY SUA !! Hahahaha.. but now she fall sleep jor.. sleep like a pig at the SOFA there.. LOL !! Don't know what to do now.. @.@ Sleep ?? Drinking coffee now.. xD I think later no need sleep lor.. Feel like wanna call a massage girl come ?? errmm.. =.='' WTF.. scare me.. my laptop suddenly close all my windows.. and restart.. so worry that my post will lost.. then I need to retype again.. luckily.. still here.. hahaha... the laptop just finish update the window and auto restart.. zzzz.. why I never notice ?? I'm so STUPID.. hahaha.. maybe long time no use it ler.. hahahaha.. DOING NOTHING now... =.='' super duper sien lorrrr... FML ....

I hate ULCER !!!

T.T suffering again... Having ulcer again !! Damn pain now... Ulcer + flu + tired == why all come together wo... Very pain lar... Can I have a good rest ?? Hehe ... My heart ... What happen wo .. Why no mood working de ? Or is it because I'm sick jor ?? Maybe I'm sick already that's why no mood work Gus... Hehe... How I pass my cny ? No enough rest at all lor !! Hahaha... And I took my iPhone 4s ler... So happy... Hehe...

I love this Chinese New Year song

Happy Chinese New Year 2012 !!

Happy happy Chinese New Year 2012 !! Happy Dragon Year ... Hahahaha... Now I'm still at Manila, pass my Reunion Dinner night and Chor 1... 1st time pass it without family beside me o and my Reunion dinner was with my dear ... LOL !! First time lor... Hahahha...

Chor 1.. have to work but all wear RED RED come to work ... Feeling not bad also but I don't have any RED clothes .. so I wear a Red pant with SBO uniform .. Hehehe .. Also same same jek .. red also ma... Hehehe... My first Angpao.. from SBO also .. Hahahaha ... 100SGD .. o.O .. Not bad also geh ...

All SBO staffs gambling gambling .. All went to Penthouse at the Chor 1 morning .. open party, after eat .. GAMBLE start .. Hahahaha ... So many people and so crowd ... If I'm the maid of the house .. I think I will crazy because so much things to clean up ... xD ... Me also play some and win some also .. hehehe ... But then just play for awhile because I'm damn tired jor .. Cannot tahan then back my own unit with some of them also .. Make a sleeping mask and SLEEP ! Sleep like a PIG !! Hahahah ...

This few days geh mood also very good and no argue with Mr.K.. Maybe CNY now .. because CNY time better don't argue ma.. So after CNY ... maybe will turn back to before that ? LOL !! Chor 5 faster come !!! I want back Malaysia !! Hehehehe ...

Friday night ...

Grrr... So tired aaa !! T.T Now I know that cannot sleep so much when half day because after that I totally can't fall sleep ! Now I'm so sleepy and tired... How ?? T.T ~~ 1 more week can go back Malaysia again ler ... Yohoo~~ This 2 days keep argue with you ! Don't know why !! Siennnnnnnnnnnn.... Every day like same same.. Every day like doing same things... Haizz... Money no enough use ler ... How to find more money ? Hahahhaa.. Or anyone can let me spend some ? xD

*Short post for today*

Finally I owned It !

Finally my Iphone 4s reach ! Yeah~~ I'm so excited... I just hope faster reach 27th January, so that I can see my Ip4s... Finally... I own it... Hiak hiak hiak ... I wish to have an Iphone since the day Iphone 4 was launch and now I own it ! Hahahahaha... I won't regret having it and paying RM 2500 for it because I feel it is worth ! Everyone won't feel regret when they own what they wish to own eventhough it is EXPENSIVE ! I promise I will sayang it and take care it properly... xD Mr.K also bought an Iphone 4s for his sister ! LOL !! Such a damn good brother.. Give you a LIKE !! Hahahaha... This time going back Malaysia.. What plan again ? Shopping ? Day trip ? Or stay at home ? NO WAY ! Cannot stay at home.. I can't waste my holiday... But seems like no one free to accompany because all already start working ... :( Don't know this time go back... gonna spend how much again... When I can save enough money and leave here wo... T.T Faster lor ... xD But I still have many things haven't buy yet wo... Kekekeke... Now I'm so tired ! Shoulder damn pain ... T.T Why a... Feel like getting old jor ... @.@'' I cannot fall sick ! Take care myself ! =P

Food can simply eat but word can't simply speak !

Why you never think before you speak ? Do you know every word you speak out can cause a lot problems ? Fxck you ! Do you have brain ? Or your inside your ASS ? Shit !! What you had speak and now make problems out !! I know why you wanna did that, you wanna spoil people relationship ! KNN ! You are fucking FAT, DUMB and like a big fat stupid TONG !! =.='' Why I'm so angry ? Because I really cannot tahan and no one can let me "fat sit" .. only can write it here .. !! Not everyone can same like you ... Rub rub rub and rub .. only know to rub .. Grrrr.. When I see you .. I still have to act my SMILING face to you ... T.T OK ! Stop talking the fucking shit people ! SPOIL my mood.. xD ...

CNY coming soon~~

Emmm.. Chinese New Year coming soon but how come I don't have the mood ? Finally today get the letter.. Emmm.. same like last year .. But the level still remain same :( . Now company having a new rules ... =.='' Anyone can be up level and also can be downgrade the level .. when your level is downgrade ler.. salary also will be DEDUCT ! OMG !!

My face turn to that ! T.T That means... I have to be work more hard to avoid getting downgrade lor ?? Shit !! Money really so hard to earn !! Awww .... When I can leave here ? When can I make my dreams come true ?? I wanna to go travel ! I want go KOREA, JAPAN and many many place but don't have money ... HOW ? xD So easy .. Later just sleep more early and dream early lor ... Hahahah ... Fucking STRESS !! You know ??? I think no one know... Now I'm just 22 years old .. but I feel myself like 28 now .. T.T Why can be like this ? Can I forever stay young ? Hahahaha .. Again .. go dream later ... xD

How to be a generous woman ? I really don't know ! So stupid lor !! :( HATE HATE HATE !! Why cannot let me every day happy geh ? From start till now also same ! Grrrr... Having offday again .. What to do later ?? Emm... boring life .. really FML again .. Feel like wanna go facial but now I still awake.. I think I sleep better... Night .. go where ?? At home is the better choice... ^^ Because alone just can stay at home ... Hehehehe ...

Finally I had order an Iphone 4s for myself ... Yeah~~ I'm damn excited waiting for it coming ... But I'm worry also .. because I'm first time online buy such expensive stuffs ... Until now... it is still under processing condition .. When it will deliver to my house leh ? So excited ler... Iphone 4s I'm waiting you leh.. Faster come lor... xD

当你不开心时，就看看图片笑笑吧。。。

Thursday Morning :)

Morning again ! Yeah.. I'm still awake ! My dark circles become bigger and bigger jor !! Hahahaha.. Shit ! Why I still don't want sleep ? Because I still have so much things haven't done yet.. xD ... If I'm not at here wasting my time .. I think I can so fast done all things ... Hahahaha.. Aiks !! Today let them say my mouth looks like DUCK when I take photo ! Isshhh !!! Apala ... T.T

I found that our life can be so meaningful and happy when we try to more "看开" ... Some time we can try to let go some thing or loose your hand a bit off... you might get a better life ? It is truth ? Errmmm... some time when we think too much it will just caused a lots problems. Maybe he keep chat with other girls, I will be get angry or dislike but this is normal for someone that have feeling to you. But some time I feel that this angry or dislike just useless because he won't care about it. In his mind, he will just feel you too small gas and no enough generous.

Some time can try to loose off my hand and let him be, if he really belongs to you, no matter what happen.. at the end.. he still will stay beside you. But some time I just can't control myself ! I will just automatically angry and argue with you... =.='' I FEEL SO USELESS !! zzzzzz.... Ok .. this topic.. stop here .. me and you always have many problems, I knew it since the day we started... hahahha..

Shit !! My face so dry again !! What happen lar ? Is it drink no enough water ? T.T Why my skin always de-hydration ?? Sure will be like that because almost 24 hours I'm staying under the AIR-CON !! When I can stop this kind of life ?? I'm 22 years old now but my skin like 35 years old woman ler... Arggghhhh !!!!

往往许多人失去了才知道什么叫珍惜,一个女生不代表什么,她是我们以后的伴...追一个女生不是容易的事，男生会用尽方法的表达他对你的爱...但是到了最后100% 里面只有 10% 是成功的,就是不懂什么是得来不易,需要好好地珍惜...得到了，不要清言放弃...不然到了最后失去了，才懂得珍惜...

Morning ! :)

Why I still awake now ??? I'm hungry lar !!! Aiks... Don't know what to eat.. and don't know what to do now, so I'm here to blog again.. Hahahaha.. Even though my blog no people view .. hahaha.. Suddenly I'm so LIKE few of this picturessssss... :)

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Genting 1 night trip.. hahaha.. actually just few hours trip .. =.='' LOL ! [Hope to have again xD]

My company 2012 Annual Dinner [Black and White, Devil and Angel] Kekekeke...

Again I'm so confused now. Why until now the things still can appear im my mind and I still don't know the answer yet ? The truth will be bad or good ? I really wish to know it. I know this things pass for a period ler, but it just ... aiks ... I don't know how to describe my feeling. I hate people LIE to me. Besides that, I also don't know what myself want now ! SHIT !!

Moody Saturday !

Too over concern a person is WRONG ! Huh... care a person also wrong .. hahaha.. not caring person is wrong .. just when you too over caring, they will just feel you "FAN" , so noisy , ask so much , and bla bla bla~~ If like this .. better we shut up our mouth ? LOL !! Cannot lar.. I already be used with it. I always ask so much.. hahaha.. Maybe I like people caring me lor.. But now .. really .. FML !

The last day of 2011 !

Have a great night at 31st December 2011, the last day of 2011 ! Celebrate with my dear, hahaha.. We went to Deluxe again and that night he brought his friends out also ! LOL !! That day was a fun night because long time I never try that relax ler.. hahaha.. Thanks you for bringing me out to relax, that night .. really no pressure and I just keep talking, dancing and laughing. Just like become a different person. Hope every day also same. LOL ! Impossible !! Besides that, I also hope every time you go this kind of place also bring me and your friends together go also because it is really have fun with them even though we less talk. Hahahah.. but I think 1 day sure we have many things to talk ! Just that night will have things to talk because after that I will back to normal. I really hope every day I can be abnormal ! xD

After this great night, again I having an exciting night ! DRIFT !!! Woah~ First time I try it. Never expect that @.@'' Dear promise me that will fetch me go Genting by his Fairlady ! He did it, so 1st Dec 2012 night, he ask his friends to join, after yum cha at Old Town, we back home and change our clothes, then our NIGHT trip start ! :D 3 cars going up... boomm~~ Actually I feel sleepy on that time but I worry dear can't see the road properly, so I open my eyes big big to help him see also.. [I'm damn good]. Our car going up slowly and smoothly.. suddenly the car.. like drifting .. @.@'' On that time, I'm totally blank and after the car is stable already, I direct scold dear.

*Our conversation inside the car*

Me says : Argghhh .. just now what happen ? Why will like this ? You know so danger or not ? [in a angry voice]

Dear says : Drift ma.. drift is like this geh..

Me says : Before you drift, can let me know ?

Dear says : How to let you know ? Feel geh ma.. aiyorrr... u scare a??

Me says : YOU say leh !

Hahahaha.. After think back.. I feel quite funny also.. kekeke... Emm.. what you had promised me.. almost done all jor.. quite happy geh .. but .. is it .. after this .. you won't do anymore ? :( I don't want like this wo.. Cannot forever also do it for me meh ?? Only for me.. not for others wo.. can ??

1. Fetch me back from airport with Fairlady [DONE]

2. With me go Melaka with Fairlady [DONE]

3. Fetch me go Genting with Fairlady [DONE]

4. Bring me go eat Tauhu Bakar [DONE but just so ngam there got sell nia..]

5. Bring me go eat The Ship [FAILED, haven't bring me go ! xD]

Some time really have a great day with you.. but some time you really do something that hurt me, :( Can I don't want like this ?? I just want always happy. I know I'm greedy. Maybe you don't like it. Just hope you do all that for me only. No OTHERS ! Hahahahahaha... I'm super duper greedy 1 and this caused no one want me.

Say the truth, if you really treat me good, treat me honestly, and won't betray me, I will same to you too ! But if you really betray me, I don't know what I will do... Hiak hiak hiak... I can be an angel also can be a DEVIL~ Wkakakakakak ... [Sot jor]

Finally my holiday end :( Sad~~ Why the time pass so fast ?? Argghh~~ Now is 2012 ! Happy New Year.. A brand new year ! Yeah.. What happen on 2011, please forget it ! No more in my brain !! Hahaha.. Hope I can do so lor xD. Yesterday when waiting the flight back to Manila, my heart .. feel so .. aiks .. don't know how to describe the feeling. I miss my buddies :( I'm so sorry to you guys because I just can spend the 2 hours with you all and the 2 hours is really no enough !! Awwww~~ 5 of us really long time no chit chat ler, the next time going back have to plan nicely ler ! Hahahaha.. really miss you guys..

Luckily every time when coming back to Manila, still got you beside me. So I'm not that lonely. :D But yesterday suddenly you ask me a weird question and now I'm so confused with it :( Why suddenly you ask so ? T.T Actually I never think to play play with this relationship and I hope you are same too. If you are really serious with this relationship, why still wanna think go find another ? Is it I'm not enough good ? Dear, I really don't hope you like your friend them a.. they like this because they haven't meet the one they really love, when they meet it, I think they won't like this anymore. Even though we just together for 2 years+ but in this 2 years really many things happen on us and it is not easy for both of us together until now. So, I really don't hope got anythings will spoil our relationship.

Say the truth, I never think wanna find others anymore because I really feel tired jor. I just hope now will maintain till the end but what you thinking now, I really don't know. Aiks~~ Today no mood working .. =.='' My heart still at Malaysia there ... Zzzz ... when my heart gonna come back o ?? LOL ~ But work few more weeks.. gonna go back holiday again.. hahaha.. celebrate Chinese New Year ! Kekeke.. but seems like those clothes I bought for CNY .. I already let me wore ler.. hahahaha...