Monday, February 20, 2012

What I really need and what you really know ?

Today I'm fucking pekcek !! Why will like this ? I really "mm fuk" with all this thing.. I already no count so much already, I already let it be.. Why today I want so kepo ppl things ? Maybe I shut my mouth up then won't so much things happen. I know you already say sorry to me and I no more angry you but what I sad is why you don't know what I need ? I feel that you are just protecting her ! What she do is correct and what I do us wrong ? Ok, you say diff group diff style, I can accept it. But then she really can ? Ok, she can or not really non of my business ! but why you want keep argue with me about that ? Me "mm fuk" is bcs she like this, those ppl feel she can but me ? Just A shit ?? Wtf ! She have so many ppl support ! Ok, I'm not jealous her and I also don't hope I can up bcs got ppl support ! I want use my own effort ! Keep stay here, I will die soon... Friend with this let ppl say friend with that also say .. HELLO ! Is you guys dump me alone 1st so I go join others lar. Like this also want say me ? I really so hard to do ppl ! This say that bad thing, that say this bad thing.. And then I just keep listen from both .. Want me how leh ? Me also keep quiet and listen only.. Actually I very San fu.. U all know am ? But no ppl know .. No ppl I can tell also.. Bcs I don't want later many things happen again.. Only here I can write out.. Maybe I can tell my bf but he willing to listen ? He know my pain ? Tell him, I sure will cry out then he just will say that I want some ppl pity me and care me ? even him also like this.. Who I still can tell to ? Only blogger can :) I tell him just I want share my things with him but not want him pity me. Some more he is my bf, he have the responsibility to do so and not only me go care him nia !!! Pls don't come and tell me that diff ppl diff behavior ! This is not accept ! Some Time I send so much things to you just want you send me back more word but what you send me ? "okok muacks" OMG !! What response you want me give you ? A BIG smile :D <<< like this ? You really don't know what I thinking and what I need at all ! You say you know, ya... You really know, really know how to say nia lor.. Just same,, nth change... I promise myself not to cry anymore ! So how suffer I also will just kept in my heart. I will continue hold my tears :) no one know, ok.. This blog my bf know it and he might view it, if after he read it and feel angry with me then I ntg to say, this just a only place that I can write my problems.. No one I can say with ! Last word.. I love Blogger :) ❤

1 comment:

  1. i say alot time already ,i not protecting her i just protecting my group member and my group.

    even u have alot ppl support also not a good thing ,like her , all feel she cant ,only 1 say her can ,when she push her until very high ,that time no body support that time ,only her ,wat she cant do ,then she only will know pain , pust up fast ,drop more fast...learn thing is one by one is better !!

    u say u keep listen both saying bad thing , i dun think very hard to do , that is normal . for me how to do , i just listen as a song ,i really no care ,just dunwan say dao me only ,becos i at KL also same like this de lah , my few friend argue jor , when i together this ,this say their bad word, when say to me i just diam diam , i no treat as one problem ,just ignore it nia ,dun care wat the say ,useless if not say u !!i donno why u so care about this.............

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