Sad :(

Once again I do stupid things ! :( SAD !! Aiks .. but then .. I couldn't control myself. I'm scared of it ! I'm worry, I keep simply think ! I know you hate it. Just feel like wanna "bang" wall and die. :'( Don't know why this feeling never disappear from me ! Why WHY WHY ??? :@ Some time hope you can leave me alone. :'( If you read this post, I gonna say sorry to you because I can't trust that she never find you anymore. I really don't hope you lies. But I know, to avoid argue, u choose to no let me know. :( I really don't want find a new BF anymore. Hope you be the last but I know this would not happen. Just to wait the day to come. :')

Hiak hiak hiak~ Now is 3am.. But then I still need to sit till 5.45am only can pang kang !! Happy happy ~~ :)) Shit !~ I damn sleepy right now .. /blur .. Ermmm.. I still can continue shopping after I reach Malaysia ?? But if I no do so.. I don't have enough time to use ler .. :S Hope Malaysia won't raining lor, if not .. the road sure SUPER JAM !! Holiday mood ON ! Yeah /XD

Last day to work ! :)

Yeah~~ Last day to work ! After that.. I gonna have my holiday~~ This 2 days company let us more earlier pang kang because of Christmas Eve celebration.. Yesterday was a crazy night ! Long time no drank like this, dance like this.. really feel happy with it :) Yesterday can count as a DRUNK night .. Hahaha.. Almost all the sakai [s] also drunk except Mandysua (because she gonna work at 11.30am) and Cindy Ong (because she don't want join us !) *angry* .. This time holiday is a short holiday for me.. Just 7 days .. :( No enough for me ! I got so much things to do .. T.T

At first .. I wanna have a hair cut and hair dye ! My hair are damn ugly right now .. T.T
Second .. Have a rest and night going to find my babes yum cha ?? Still planning now..
Third .. Shopping with mummy !! Hahaha..
Fourth .. Shopping again but with my bff, hahaha..
Fifth .. Melaka 1 day trip with my sakai [s] and dear might be join us too..

Sixth .. New year eve countdown ?? Go where ?? Don't have any plan yet.. :(
Seventh .. ARGGGG !! Gonna packing ! Wanna back Manila for work .. =.=''

See.. 7 days.. is really no enough for me ! Now I'm still headache with my Annual Dinner dress.. @.@ Where to find it ? *Headache*

Suddenly think of 1 thing.. ermmm.. when a girl not close with her boyfriend geh friends.. and she just keep silent or just smile.. izzit will let people say she is LC ?? or another case .. His friends and his friends geh girlfriends all are friends or might be close friends.. but then the girl don't know them at all, then 1 day they hang out, so the girl just smile and keep silent.. will let people say LC also ?? So... complicated .. hahaha.. but I never meet this yet .. because normally all the person that I met, they are so friendly .. I like it :) Because I'm a shy person and I will talk less in front of those that I just know them.. but when I'm close with them.. I will change to become so 38 .. hahaha.. But my first appearance for all the people is.. I'm LC ! :( How come ?? Sad.....

Long time no blogging ler.. is time to blog again. Hahaha.. Today early fong gong.. that's why can write nonsense at here.. haha.. He went back Malaysia lor .. Leave me alone at Manila here now. :'( *Sad* Hahahaha.. but then we will meet up after 3 days more ! Yeah !! Finally his car is out and he gonna come airport to fetch by driving his new car ! I wait for it for a quiet long time. I think almost 1 year. Don't know why.. when I'm alone .. I will just simply think and automatically will think back the past ! @.@'' If he know I'm like this again.. sure get scold ! =p hahaha.. Boring boring now .. What can I do now ? Aiks .. Ermm ermm .. my braces.. getting more improvement ler ! Yeah !! I can see my teeth become more straight and straight ler ! Yohoo ~~ It is worth for me to pain because the hurt from the brackets ! xD~~ And I sacrifice a lots .. I love crackers, I love chocolate, I love to eat, I love to bite, I love to take photo [Even though I know myself not pretty at all] , but after the bracing .. I less do this ! Hmmm... But I sure, one day I could do it again.. hahaha...

*Dear, I miss you so much !! Wait me back ! Come airport fetch me up .. hahaha

一段感情，前三个月。。就是甜蜜的时候， 当过了三个月，就会变得平平淡淡，慢慢那段感情就会变得双方都会有自己的生活。。昨天我告诉你。。和你一起有时候我觉得很辛苦。。你答我，你也不懂做么你会这样。。有时候你想自己一个人，有时候你想和我一起，有时候你想只是和你朋友一起。。。其实我也会这样。。但是。。当我想你陪我的时候。。你却想和你朋友一起，当我不批你陪的时候，你就是需要我。。。做么了啦。。感情东西真的很烦！！！其实。。到现在我还是在害怕。。怕你会找她或她会找你，然后你怕我会生气就不敢让我知道。。:(

又是期待假期的来临。。哈哈。。不懂有没有惊喜咧。。。不懂你会不会驾着你的 DREAM CAR 来飞机场载我咧？哈哈哈。。。真的很期待。。。快快到咯。。。

I love this song ...

連詩雅 - I'm still loving you

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we have been through
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now im left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'll love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But im still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

做太多，别人只会认为你多余，当你没做时候，别人就会认为你懒惰，不会做！为什么要这样呢？真的不明白。。有些东西都已经过去了，为什么还要放在嘴边里？你们说会给机会人改过，其实你们永远都没有放下过。。哪个事情还是放在心里。。一个小小件的东西，你们都不能忘记。。都已经说不会再让同样事情发生，你们还是要讲。。你们想怎样？有时候我会想。。到底是不是我害了你？我只是和你聊天。。告诉你我的难过。。真的没想过会搞到这样。。是不是和自己男友说也不能？人。。真的很难做。。什么都不能讲。。累！！

Don't be so naive ! No one will treat you good except yourself just will treat yourself good. No matter how good you treat them, at the end.. they will just betray you. Actually this blog, I'm gonna write all happy things happen on me but recently just happen too much sad things on me. So STRESS !! =.='' Everyone all same. Why I wanna treat them so good ?? Why I cannot be more bad ? Maybe I be bad, my life can be more happy.. Bad girls always love by man. 女人不坏，男人不爱.. is this really ? If really, I also wanna be a BAD WOMAN ! Hahahahaha.. be a bad woman, at least won't betray by lover, even get betray also, won't so hurt because never take the true heart out for him. Few weeks no go out with you ler.. but no place let us go.. SIEN~ Some time not really like to stay at house but no place can go ? Aiks ... Christmas Eve, New Year Eve .. want come soon ? Got any plan ? Your fairlady wanna come out soon. Can go Melaka with me ? New year eve wanna bring me go where ? Suddenly so miss BOBO my dog .. Feel like wanna hug him~ T.T

Some time when I'm feel sad or moody, I will go to view your blog. When I read those things you write, I feel so touching and hope you always be like that. I really love it. I don't hope you will change it.

Why must something happen ler.. you only will care of me ? I post 关心 this 2 words on my msn title doesn't means I close my heart. I just need you care but not after something happen only come to care me. Before we together, I already told you, I need my bf care me so much. If at the starting you know yourself can't do it, why you still want together with me ? I know you don't like I control you so much, you don't like what I'm doing now. Some time I will think.. if you don't like so much about me, why you still want together with me ? But I never ask you.. because I really don't want lost you. But now.. I don't know how to continue our relationship.. you say if I no trust you, you feel so san fu. I know that because I'm san fu too. In my heart still have you. You teach me how to do, can ma ? When I look at you, I think of her, I think back what you 2 chat.. I try my best to act happy in front of you because I don't want we 2 argue. I know you don't like to see my blackly face. If you really love me, can you care me more ? Love me more ? Let me feel that you really love me ? Can ?? I really hope the bitch stop finding you and you won't lie me anymore. I so scare. So scare you will not tell me that she find you or you just go find her again. If really, why don't you just leave me alone ? Maybe I will be more happy :)

Bitch ! Can you stop finding my bf ? If you feel lonely, please go find your bf ! I know you don't like I control you so much. But what I doing now just to protect myself. I don't get cheat anymore. When you know I'm opening your MSN, you just stop chatting with her. Just like got somethings can't let me know. Why want like this ? What you 2 chat before ? Is it really got somethings that can't let me know ? I admit that I really can't trust you because she keep find you. Do you ever stand my side and think of me ? If the one doing the things like now is ME, how do you feel ? I'm sure you will think I got somethings with the guy also. Not me choosing not to trust you but just what you doing now can't let me trust you ! Why at the beginning I ask you to stop chatting with her, you don't want listen to me ? Now all this happen and you come to blame me ? Then now you only remove her, stop contact with her ? But we already argue for many times because of her. Can you tell me ? When I ask you to remove her, block her.. actually do you willing to do it ? Or I'm forcing you ? It is worth for us to argue because of her ? She really that important to you ? Important till can sacrifice me ?? If really.. then I'm sure your heart no more me, only have her.