Sad :(

Once again I do stupid things ! :( SAD !! Aiks .. but then .. I couldn't control myself. I'm scared of it ! I'm worry, I keep simply think ! I know you hate it. Just feel like wanna "bang" wall and die. :'( Don't know why this feeling never disappear from me ! Why WHY WHY ??? :@ Some time hope you can leave me alone. :'( If you read this post, I gonna say sorry to you because I can't trust that she never find you anymore. I really don't hope you lies. But I know, to avoid argue, u choose to no let me know. :( I really don't want find a new BF anymore. Hope you be the last but I know this would not happen. Just to wait the day to come. :')

Hiak hiak hiak~ Now is 3am.. But then I still need to sit till 5.45am only can pang kang !! Happy happy ~~ :)) Shit !~ I damn sleepy right now .. /blur .. Ermmm.. I still can continue shopping after I reach Malaysia ?? But if I no do so.. I don't have enough time to use ler .. :S Hope Malaysia won't raining lor, if not .. the road sure SUPER JAM !! Holiday mood ON ! Yeah /XD

Last day to work ! :)

Yeah~~ Last day to work ! After that.. I gonna have my holiday~~ This 2 days company let us more earlier pang kang because of Christmas Eve celebration.. Yesterday was a crazy night ! Long time no drank like this, dance like this.. really feel happy with it :) Yesterday can count as a DRUNK night .. Hahaha.. Almost all the sakai [s] also drunk except Mandysua (because she gonna work at 11.30am) and Cindy Ong (because she don't want join us !) *angry* .. This time holiday is a short holiday for me.. Just 7 days .. :( No enough for me ! I got so much things to do .. T.T

At first .. I wanna have a hair cut and hair dye ! My hair are damn ugly right now .. T.T
Second .. Have a rest and night going to find my babes yum cha ?? Still planning now..
Third .. Shopping with mummy !! Hahaha..
Fourth .. Shopping again but with my bff, hahaha..
Fifth .. Melaka 1 day trip with my sakai [s] and dear might be join us too..

Sixth .. New year eve countdown ?? Go where ?? Don't have any plan yet.. :(
Seventh .. ARGGGG !! Gonna packing ! Wanna back Manila for work .. =.=''

See.. 7 days.. is really no enough for me ! Now I'm still headache with my Annual Dinner dress.. @.@ Where to find it ? *Headache*

Suddenly think of 1 thing.. ermmm.. when a girl not close with her boyfriend geh friends.. and she just keep silent or just smile.. izzit will let people say she is LC ?? or another case .. His friends and his friends geh girlfriends all are friends or might be close friends.. but then the girl don't know them at all, then 1 day they hang out, so the girl just smile and keep silent.. will let people say LC also ?? So... complicated .. hahaha.. but I never meet this yet .. because normally all the person that I met, they are so friendly .. I like it :) Because I'm a shy person and I will talk less in front of those that I just know them.. but when I'm close with them.. I will change to become so 38 .. hahaha.. But my first appearance for all the people is.. I'm LC ! :( How come ?? Sad.....

Long time no blogging ler.. is time to blog again. Hahaha.. Today early fong gong.. that's why can write nonsense at here.. haha.. He went back Malaysia lor .. Leave me alone at Manila here now. :'( *Sad* Hahahaha.. but then we will meet up after 3 days more ! Yeah !! Finally his car is out and he gonna come airport to fetch by driving his new car ! I wait for it for a quiet long time. I think almost 1 year. Don't know why.. when I'm alone .. I will just simply think and automatically will think back the past ! @.@'' If he know I'm like this again.. sure get scold ! =p hahaha.. Boring boring now .. What can I do now ? Aiks .. Ermm ermm .. my braces.. getting more improvement ler ! Yeah !! I can see my teeth become more straight and straight ler ! Yohoo ~~ It is worth for me to pain because the hurt from the brackets ! xD~~ And I sacrifice a lots .. I love crackers, I love chocolate, I love to eat, I love to bite, I love to take photo [Even though I know myself not pretty at all] , but after the bracing .. I less do this ! Hmmm... But I sure, one day I could do it again.. hahaha...

*Dear, I miss you so much !! Wait me back ! Come airport fetch me up .. hahaha

一段感情，前三个月。。就是甜蜜的时候， 当过了三个月，就会变得平平淡淡，慢慢那段感情就会变得双方都会有自己的生活。。昨天我告诉你。。和你一起有时候我觉得很辛苦。。你答我，你也不懂做么你会这样。。有时候你想自己一个人，有时候你想和我一起，有时候你想只是和你朋友一起。。。其实我也会这样。。但是。。当我想你陪我的时候。。你却想和你朋友一起，当我不批你陪的时候，你就是需要我。。。做么了啦。。感情东西真的很烦！！！其实。。到现在我还是在害怕。。怕你会找她或她会找你，然后你怕我会生气就不敢让我知道。。:(

又是期待假期的来临。。哈哈。。不懂有没有惊喜咧。。。不懂你会不会驾着你的 DREAM CAR 来飞机场载我咧？哈哈哈。。。真的很期待。。。快快到咯。。。

I love this song ...

連詩雅 - I'm still loving you

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we have been through
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now im left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'll love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But im still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

做太多，别人只会认为你多余，当你没做时候，别人就会认为你懒惰，不会做！为什么要这样呢？真的不明白。。有些东西都已经过去了，为什么还要放在嘴边里？你们说会给机会人改过，其实你们永远都没有放下过。。哪个事情还是放在心里。。一个小小件的东西，你们都不能忘记。。都已经说不会再让同样事情发生，你们还是要讲。。你们想怎样？有时候我会想。。到底是不是我害了你？我只是和你聊天。。告诉你我的难过。。真的没想过会搞到这样。。是不是和自己男友说也不能？人。。真的很难做。。什么都不能讲。。累！！

Don't be so naive ! No one will treat you good except yourself just will treat yourself good. No matter how good you treat them, at the end.. they will just betray you. Actually this blog, I'm gonna write all happy things happen on me but recently just happen too much sad things on me. So STRESS !! =.='' Everyone all same. Why I wanna treat them so good ?? Why I cannot be more bad ? Maybe I be bad, my life can be more happy.. Bad girls always love by man. 女人不坏，男人不爱.. is this really ? If really, I also wanna be a BAD WOMAN ! Hahahahaha.. be a bad woman, at least won't betray by lover, even get betray also, won't so hurt because never take the true heart out for him. Few weeks no go out with you ler.. but no place let us go.. SIEN~ Some time not really like to stay at house but no place can go ? Aiks ... Christmas Eve, New Year Eve .. want come soon ? Got any plan ? Your fairlady wanna come out soon. Can go Melaka with me ? New year eve wanna bring me go where ? Suddenly so miss BOBO my dog .. Feel like wanna hug him~ T.T

Some time when I'm feel sad or moody, I will go to view your blog. When I read those things you write, I feel so touching and hope you always be like that. I really love it. I don't hope you will change it.

Why must something happen ler.. you only will care of me ? I post 关心 this 2 words on my msn title doesn't means I close my heart. I just need you care but not after something happen only come to care me. Before we together, I already told you, I need my bf care me so much. If at the starting you know yourself can't do it, why you still want together with me ? I know you don't like I control you so much, you don't like what I'm doing now. Some time I will think.. if you don't like so much about me, why you still want together with me ? But I never ask you.. because I really don't want lost you. But now.. I don't know how to continue our relationship.. you say if I no trust you, you feel so san fu. I know that because I'm san fu too. In my heart still have you. You teach me how to do, can ma ? When I look at you, I think of her, I think back what you 2 chat.. I try my best to act happy in front of you because I don't want we 2 argue. I know you don't like to see my blackly face. If you really love me, can you care me more ? Love me more ? Let me feel that you really love me ? Can ?? I really hope the bitch stop finding you and you won't lie me anymore. I so scare. So scare you will not tell me that she find you or you just go find her again. If really, why don't you just leave me alone ? Maybe I will be more happy :)

Bitch ! Can you stop finding my bf ? If you feel lonely, please go find your bf ! I know you don't like I control you so much. But what I doing now just to protect myself. I don't get cheat anymore. When you know I'm opening your MSN, you just stop chatting with her. Just like got somethings can't let me know. Why want like this ? What you 2 chat before ? Is it really got somethings that can't let me know ? I admit that I really can't trust you because she keep find you. Do you ever stand my side and think of me ? If the one doing the things like now is ME, how do you feel ? I'm sure you will think I got somethings with the guy also. Not me choosing not to trust you but just what you doing now can't let me trust you ! Why at the beginning I ask you to stop chatting with her, you don't want listen to me ? Now all this happen and you come to blame me ? Then now you only remove her, stop contact with her ? But we already argue for many times because of her. Can you tell me ? When I ask you to remove her, block her.. actually do you willing to do it ? Or I'm forcing you ? It is worth for us to argue because of her ? She really that important to you ? Important till can sacrifice me ?? If really.. then I'm sure your heart no more me, only have her.

有些心底话。。还没能说出来。。几时才能说出来了？这样下去觉得很累。。没有人真真知道我要些什么。。没有人真的明白我的心到底在想什么。。我不想再一次又一次的失望。。我是一个人。。人会觉得累的。。有时候不是我要想太多而是你让我想那么多。。我真的真的不想这样下去了。。问题根本就没有解决过。。一直都在。。。

Fucker BITCH ! What you want now ? Can you please don't come and spoil our relationship ? You have boyfriend, please go love your boyfriend but not come to find my boyfriend !

I really very very hate and dislike this BITCH ! Can stop contact with her ?!?!?!?

Huh!!~~~ Can let me fat pei hei ? Me whole night just sleep 2 hours .. After that come to work ! I feel myself wanna die soon. Totally no appetite to eat ! OMG ~~ I want back my happy life !!

Where's the Mandy gone ??? @.@ ~~ How come now change to a STUPID MANDY ? Always just keep think nonsense. Make her boyfriend hate and angry of her ! Where's the confident gone ?? Why no more confident to yourself, to him and to this relationship ? If like this, how you both continue this relationship ?

I'm really tired now. My brain is BLANK now. I don't know what myself want ! T.T~~

Having gastric again .. Very suffer ... Argghhhh~~~ !!!

你的就是你的。。如果不是你的。。你怎样管怎样帮着他。。有一天他都会走。。那做么不选择开开心心的在一起。。但是。。我真的做不到。。对不起。。。

人是自私的动物。。也是贪心的动物。。但你拥有一样东西。。你就不愿意和别人分。。 我都是一样的。。。我很乱。。今天差点被干了。。。我可以做错一个我没有做错过的东西。。。到底我在想什么？好彩没有人知道。。 不然我真的被干了。。。 吓死了。。。

默默人 ：为什么你不要和你男朋友去旅行庆祝 New Year Eve ？

女 ：他不得空啊。。。

默默人：做么不得空。。。

女 ：他有东西要做。。。

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女　： 为什么你就像不喜欢和我去旅行？

男　：不是啦。。。我没有钱。。。

女　：　为什么你不要出街？

男　：　我没有东西要买。。。

女　：　为什么你不喜欢去戏院看戏？

男　：　我就是不喜欢。。觉得很浪费时间。。

女　：　为什么你每天在家睡觉？

男　：　我很累。。。

女　：　你在哪里？

男　：　跟朋友喝酒。。。

女　：　明天要出去吗？

男　：　明天再讲。。现在不得空。。。

女　：　今晚你又来载我吗？

男　：　还不懂，在打给你。。。

有谁能告诉我。。到底哪个男的在想什么？女的懂男的在烦他的车。。但是有时候女的也希望男的能陪她去她想去的地方。。

女的常常说有朋友陪她。。其实他希望陪她的是她的男友。。而不是朋友。。

当家人问她，“你的男友呢？”　她就常常告诉他们。。“他不得空。。有东西要做。。”

当女的打电话给男的。。男的就好像很忙这样。。。但是多一下。。男的就和他的朋友出去了。。

女的觉得很寂寞。。打给每一个朋友。。全部都是在跟男友一起。。。

那就一个人在家等待她男友电话。。等到睡着了。。电话才响。。。

女的不敢去问男的。。要去哪里哪里吗。。因为她不想男的去找借口的对她。。。

她知道男的根本就不喜欢出去除了和他的朋友。。。

What the time now ?? Why I'm still awake ?? Oh shit ! My face gonna looks tired and more tired jor !! Awww... Why like this ?? Actually now I'm damn sleepy.. but why I'm still here blogging ? I also don't know.. Just back from breakfast with Mr.K .. Every day go to eat breakfast and then after then breakfast gonnal sleep !! @.@ ~~ Like this how come won't FAT !! I'm getting fat ler !! Some people tell me that after I do the bracing, I gonna slim down especially the FACE !! But for me... It remain same.. =.='' Already brace for 1 month more .. Ermmm.. I can see some changes.. xD ~~ My teeth is MOVING now !! Yeahhh... I'm expecting the result to come out soon !! But not so fast lor.. At least need 1 and half year... @.@ .. Need to take so long time .. Aiks.. I will wait wait wait and wait one !! Hahahahaha.. Gonna sleep now .. Super duper sleepy... Good night ~

*I'm trying to change myself (*wink*)*

每天对着你微笑，看见你笑。。我觉得开心。。希望每天能让你觉得开心没有压力。。懂得自己喜欢乱想。。但是还是在控制自己。。不要让你觉得我很烦。。叫自己别再乱想了。。全部都是多于的。。只要现在开心就好了。。

闷闷的感觉让人心情不好。。不想说话。。但是你们偏偏就是要我讲话。。我不想睬你们的时候，你们就说我嚣张。。有时候真的很想一个静静的做工。。

又是很累的一天。。。

王心凌-陪我到以後 feat.羅志祥

今天真的觉得很累。。。

真的很喜欢这首歌。。。

唱出我的心。。很想你知道。。很想唱给你听。。

很想你会明白我的心。。。

希望你会知道我在想什么。。。

Whole night can't sleep.. Is it sleep too much thats why like this ? Or I think too much ? Everyone told me the same things.. When I already decide to accept him back, I should trust him and shouldn't check him so much. This just will caused argue and spoil the relationship. Now I'm trying my best to change my behaviour. I trust you won't betray me again. :) I trust you because I really love you and I hope you are same too. ^^ Ok ! Don't think about this anymore ! Recently, office happen alots things.. don't know which bastard go to complain about late pang kang. WTF ! YOU FASTER GO ADMIT IT !! Please don't involve those innocent 1.. because of YOU, we might lost our HALF DAY and late half hour to work ! Isshhh~~~ Hate this kind of people.. complain so much for what ? At the end.. make all this out.. like now and just make people hate of you ! Grrrr...

我的心突然间很乱。。。到底她对你有什么感觉。。当我问你的时候。。你给我一个怪怪的感觉。。为什么她一着要找你？你有想过这个问题吗？我是你的女友。。我会吃醋的。。我不想再哭了。。我只想好好的跟你在一起。。